Super Junior's MAMACITA M/V and 7-jib

I seriously don't want to talk about how I feel somehow disappointed for this comeback, but it really feels like I can't end my day without actually ranting (feels like I've used a wrong word, sorry) about the song itself.


Okay, the M/V was pretty hilarious. Leeteuk was funny, as well as Siwon (which I seldom praise about something). The M/V has cowboy feels to it because of the set and the costumes itself. I have nothing more to comment since nothing's pretty wrong, except that I guess they were in a box again. (I kind of understand this since there's no dessert or rancho somewhere in Asia.)



As for the song itself, I am truly sorry to say that I got disappointed. No, don't get me wrong here. The song is good. It has the cowboy feels they had since the teasers, but I felt that there's something really lacking here. For two years without a comeback, it feels like they could've done something better. I felt that everything in the 7-jib might be rushed mainly because of the title track. I solely think they waited for Leeteuk to return before they did this album.


I can't fully comment on how I feel about the album, but I'm looking forward to the other songs they have. I just hope that choose a better title track in the future (because seriously Pretty Boy was a better title track than Danger).

ps ; no hates please, i'm sorry if i offended some fans who might read this </3
pps ; the album was nice, most songs are so nice to hear, but i feel like there's a better title track than mamacita in 7-jib, i just can't point it out (maybe shirt)

Baekyeon and its Aftereffect

Yesterday was another shocking day for most of the EXO Stans and S♥NEs as SM Entertainment (more of Dispatch though, SME just confirmed it afterwards) revealed the relationship of Taeyeon and Baekhyun that had been dating each other for 4 months in the utmost secrecy.

My initial reaction? Of course, I was happy for them. I'm an EXO-Shidae shipper, but I don't really ship any otp's from them so I was excited and happy for them. I also told this to my friend who is a Baekyeon shipper and he was happy as well.

The good side: you still have a chance with your bias. The bad side: except if your bias is Baekhyun and Taeyeon. The worse side: too much bashers, too much drama.

The good side isn't really a really good side for me, but I'd still put it in because of something. Remember how Yoona and Seunggi's otp happened before they were official? It's because Seunggi likes Yoona. He's a fanboy of Yoona. This fanboy-idol relationship happened again with the two. Baekhyun is a fanboy of Taeyeon, and most EXO Stans know that.

The bad side, well of course, is if your bias are the two. But that dosen't really matter now. What matters is the worst side of the story.

Too much drama, too much speculations, too much bashers, too much stuff that happened in a span of 24 hours or more.



Intial reactions of the fans? They were so random. Some were happy, some broke down, some bashed. As for me, I was happy with the couple. But when I saw more of the tweets in my new fan account, my happy vibe shifted into something that wasn't definitely good.

I was hurt for those fans of Baekhyun (I almost had him as my bias, good thing (or not) this happened). Why? Because they were definitely hurt. They were emotionally broken. They believed in those promises that turned out to be some shit just recently. I was hurt the most for Polarlight-unnie because she did everything to be close to Baekhyun. When the news broke up, she posted in her Weibo account that she's going to support the couple, but she then posted in her personal account that she lost everything.

The problem with our idols is that they say they love us (fans), when those things are soon to be broken someday. The problem with us fans is that we believe in them. We believe in those promises we know that will be broken. We believe in them to the point that we become delusional and think that we'll have 99.99% chance of those idols falling in love with us.

Aftermath? Double, triple, or a lot times more hurting than the 99.99% chance you've been holding on.

That's what I've learned when I started liking K-guys, to get myself a grip of reality. To make myself believe that K-idols won't notice me. I sometimes overspazz when it comes to Yixing, but I always get myself a grip of it. I'll admit I'll cry when he'll be in a relationship, but it won't be hurting too much because of the reality I'm holding on to.



To the speculations I've read, I'm starting to get nervous at EXO's career. After Kris' lawsuit, Baekhyun's relationship and underage drinking were revealed. I've read that some other members have their girlfriends (even one member broke up already). I've also read about the 3 subunits in the near future. With that said, I'm starting to think that EXO won't be stable anymore. After their skyrocket glory last year, they just dropped in an instant with these issues. I'm not saying they are at the bottom, but I'm saying that they're starting to fall down slowly but hugely. You get it? With those mind-blowing news, EXO's starting to fall down slowly. I'm scared for them because of the huge success they made last year that will make them fall down in the near future.

I've been asking myself how to unstan them, because I don't think I can handle the pain when this big blow happens. They are a part of me, also with SNSD. I'm also scared for SNSD because they'll start -- no, they're falling already. Mr. Mr. wasn't that much of a song compared to IGAB, plus 2NE1's Come Back Home was better to the public. In addition to that, they're starting to reveal their relationships already. These things scare me a lot because they are a part of who I am now. GG were the persons who made me like k-pop. EXO were the persons that made me a full-time fangirl.


To the bashers, I know they have a reason to bash them, but I don't think fucking Taeyeon or Baekhyun on their IG accounts would end their relationship with each other. It would rather make them feel that they should protect themselves more. I feel sorry for Taeyeon because she said sorry to all those fans even if she hasn't done anything wrong at all. There's nothing wrong with falling in love, right? There's also nothing wrong with keeping it as privacy of their life. I wish the people who bashed them would say sorry, 'cause practically falling in love isn't a sin.


To Byun Baekhyun, I have a lot of things to tell you. And that thing I wanted to tell you was the I thing I always wanted to ask Kris when he filed the lawsuit. Why, Baekhyun? You... you broke too many hearts with your promises meant for someone else. Why did you let them believe in you, in the chance that you'll fall in love with them? I'm not really a bias of yours, but I really feel hurt for them. Why were you selfish? Why were you having fun in a situation wherein we are all fucked up? Kris' situation isn't done, yet you added fuel to the fire. I know I don't know anything about your private lives, maybe Taeyeon-unnie comforted you because of that, or I don't know. But I know there's a reason behind everything. Also, why didn't you speak up when Taeyeon was being bashed too much? She's been hurting yet there's no word from you.


"Remain soft-spoken and forgiving, even when reason is on your side." - Master Cheng Yen

I placed that quote because whatever the reason is, I'll still accept them. I know Kris has reason for that lawsuit. I know Baekhyun has a reason why he isn't telling anything yet. I know there is a underlying reason for all of this, yet I'll still forgive them because I know they did it for their best. That's one quote our Journalism teacher told us. Even though we know that reason is with us, we still have to understand and forgive. We have to understand every single detail that counts.



I'm ending this right now because I can't take it anymore. To Baekhyun and Taeyeon, I hope your relationship would last. Protect each other because all the fans are depending on you.

Please.

How I REALLY Feel About EXO's Controversy

Heads low, hopes down. The question is, are we still one?



It's been a few days since we all heard the news about Kris' lawsuit against SM Entertainment. That news came from nowhere and shot us continuously. It felt like the saying, "When it rains, it pours." And until now, fans like me are still devastated about it.



Sadness and frustration aren't the right words to describe how I really feel right now. It feels so depressing that I feel so numb at the moment. I don't know where to vent my feelings anymore. I felt like everything stopped at the moment the news came, and it never continued. I couldn't fathom what I exactly feel right now, and I know is that I'm sad…and depressed.



How is EXO right now? I don't know. Everything's messed up, even news. I don't know who exactly to believe, and which sources are legit. Everything's damn messed up. Confiscation of phones, slapping of members, and manipulation of media—they're all a mess. Which is legit? Which are lies? They're all a mess we all can't clean up to look for what we're finding.



But one thing's for sure. They're all not okay. The other members were shocked, upset, and felt betrayed. Kris was seen crying alone in China. They're all not in their best condition.



What happens after this? There are only two things I can properly think of: Kris officially leaving EXO and the others continuing their career as 11 or Kris staying with the boys as 12. Whatever path they'll take, they'll only feel incomplete. Why? For the first option, it's going to be hard since the other members need to fill up the space Kris left. For the the other one, Kris might feel uneasy most of the times, even though he'll project to the camera as if nothing went wrong.



Whatever happens, we still need to be one. Even if Kris leaves, we still have 11 members to support. I don't care anymore if they'll continue as 12 or push through as 11, as long as they'll be happy and peaceful with their career. Sure, it would be kind of awkward seeing them as 11, but let's all face it. We only have a small possibility that Kris might not leave (or rejoin if ever) EXO. He's having a hard time since then, and he wants to have a peaceful and stress-free life. I'm not foreseeing them as 11 members, but sometimes we have to accept that things won't be as we wish.



If you think I'm supporting EXO as 11, that's okay. I'm just preparing myself for some heartbreak when Kris will officially leave EXO. If you think I'm supporting EXO as 12, *fandom hug*.



But for now, let's just wait. Wait for legit updates about how Kris is doing with the lawsuit. I'm not sure where this is going, but I hope that EXO would continue their career as 12. Because they started as 12, gained awards as 12, and hopefully end their career as 12. And also, let's continue supporting the guys. They're still promoting Overdose, and have a concert just around the corner. We want them to achieve their dreams, right?



Anyway, I'm ending this up. I guess I vented everything I wanted to say here. It's okay to hate me for this post, really.

Kris and the Recent Lawsuit

Honestly, I don't know what to freaking say about the issue right now. All I know is that Kris filed a case on SM to terminate his contract. The rest? I don't know, and I don't wanna know it right now.



Upon hearing the news and seeing the comments from my source, I thought that everything was clear and it was only a rumor. But as seeing the update, I barely don't know how to respond on this. I mean, damn. They're at the peak of their career, yet they're starting to fall. And it hurts like fucking hell. I mean, why? Why all of a sudden? Why did this come up right now when we're all happy for them? Why?



I've been telling my friend about how EXO grasped her attention again to K-pop and how EXO was popular last year. Now that I've thought about it, I realized that their--no. I realized that every idol's career has flaws, even though he is at the top. And it hurts seeing Kris hurting, EXO hurting, and the fandom hurting all at the same time.



But who are we? We're just fans. Honestly speaking, we're just fans here to support our idol in whatever they do. Whether they're happy or sad, we're always there to support them no matter what. But the case here is a member leaving, and it's a serious business between the idol and the agency. It's kinda hard to accept but, we can't do anything about our idol's decisions. It's his life, his problems, his decisions. And we're just here to support him in whatever path he'll be taking.



EXO will never be the same again without Kris. But the pain we're feeling now isn't half of the pain Cassies felt when JYJ left the group. The pain we're feeling isn't half the pain all the fandoms of the first generation idols felt when these idols disbanded. This is just a single scar, but a scar that would remain. But the sad truth is that they will disband as well. Not today, not tomorrow, but someday in our lives when we know that they have done enough to leave a mark on the industry.



For Kris, I hope that your decision would make you happy and peaceful. For EXO, stay strong guys. "We are one," right? For the fandom, let's stay strong as well. For SM Entertainment, fix yourselves please. Shit has been with you since Lee Soo Man left.



Whatever happens right now, I hope that everything will be okay in the future.

About the Hashtag #ExoFansAndChicserFansPEACE

I don't know why I'm venting this out right now. Maybe fans might hate me for this, but I think I really need to vent this out. Whatever happens, I just want to say that this is just my opinion and solely my opinion. Not your opinion, not everybody else's opinion.



There is a recent hashtag on twitter telling #ExoFansAndChicserFansPEACE, telling that the two fandoms to just stop the fanwar going on between these two. I should be siding on EXO right now, but I guess it's about time to get a little bit human on the situation.



Whenever I click this trend, I mainly see not only those fans telling that they're sorry, but also fans who are immature enough not to put down their pride just for once. Honestly, this peace may be, or may be not, achievable. Why? Both because of the humble fans and the immature fans.



To the humble fans who already said their sorry to others, kudos to you for putting down your pride. I'm not telling that those immature ones are bad, but come on. We are all imperfect. I know fanwars are a huge thing within groups, and we are all familiar about it. But please, whoever started to trend that hashtag wanted peace already. He is already tired of stupid fanwars which I guess won't end for like forever.



I get his point. It's kinda tired seeing hate posts between fans. I've been seeing recent fanwars between S♥NEs and Blackjacks, and all I ever do is just stare. 2NE1 and Girls' Generation are two great global groups. You liked the super cutesy Gee, right? And you also liked the fiercely edgy Fire, right? I know I'm going out of the topic, but these two groups are very different from each other. I don't know why fans of these groups ramble on who's the best if they all know that everyone has a different pick.



Okay, back to Chicser and EXO. First and foremost, these two groups are very different groups when it comes to popularity. EXO's a global group while Chicser is a local Philippine group. Status pa lang, alam mo na EXO na yung nangingibabaw when it comes to popularity. That thing is clearly okay. But bashing each other? Seriously, that's immature. I'm not saying that I'm not bashing (I actually laughed when Owy called Suho "Sir Suho"), but things below the belt? Not good to bash on. I know you guys bashed on Chicser (even I did) about copying EXO's slogan, gayshits, and so on. And you also bashed on EXO saying no talent, just pure looks, and so on as well. We all bashed each other, in short. And I guess it's time to stop with these things and just... live in peace. Nobody's perfect. EXO and Chicser has their own imperfections, so it's normal that they have their own flaws. Not only that, Chicser also respects EXO (Owy with Sir Suho and Ranz with Kai-oppa, even though he should've use Kai-hyung). I just hope both fans do the same thing and just respect the fandoms itself.



It's gonna be a rough one, since there are (and always will be) immature fans. But I hope that everybody who's saying their apologies now are sincere about it. Seeing that some fans are still immature, it's going to be hard to get peace. Just like what Yixing said last time, he wants world peace. Let's do this for the sake of everybody.



Anyway, enough with that stuff. I'm gonna get ready for EXO's Overdose.

Happy Birthday, Luhan!

I was thinking about posting it on either Tumblr of Facebook, but I just posted her instead because of the fan hate of the trend.


First and foremost, happy birthday to EXO-M's Visual, Lead Vocal, and Lead Dancer. Happy Birthday to our favorite Bambi, who is also manly and looks like a girl at the same time. Happy Birthday also to that special person who can pull off sexy and cute at the same time. To make it short, Happy Birthday to Luhan-oppa! ♥


Before I say what my wishes are, I kinda got frustrated about something. Luhan stans mentioned in social networking sites not to trend about his birthday due to the Sewol ferry incident. Yes, they didn't put hashtags for him, but unfortunately, he trended. I kinda got frustrated to the immature S♥NEs for telling EXO Stans that they are so insensitive. I know S♥NEs have kept it on a low profile to say Happy Birthday to Jessica, but (okay I'm saying sorry 'cause I'm gonna use Filipino) wala namang masama sa pagsabi ng 'Happy Birthday', 'di ba? I'm saying that yes, we greeted him, but it isn't our fault that we greeted him so much it trended even without a hashtag.


Okay, back to Luhan-oppa. I liked oppa since Wolf days -- no. I started liking him during the time that they were on hiatus. He was actually the one who caught my attention there. But yeah, I like him because he's so talented. And he's also handsome/cute/sexy.


Anyways. Oppa, thank you for being an inspiration. I hope that you achieve what you wish to achieve. Stay humble and nice to others. Don't feel sad that other fandoms call you insensitive because of us, it only means that we love you so much that you actually trended without a reason. Just remember that your family, EXO, and the fandom will always be by your side. Saranghae, oppa! ♥



I think I typed too much already. Hahaha. I guess this is enough, fans might kill me or so.

Thoughts on 'Overdose' Leak

Honestly, it's been bothering for me reading those comments saying that watching the leaked dance practice for EXO's Overdose makes a person a fake fan. Actually, I watched the video. I'm not gonna tell anything about how the video went, but all I can say is that it's great.


Watching the Leaked Version doesn't make you a bad fan, it just means that you're too curious that you cannot contain your feels anymore. I was thinking twice about not watching the video (my classmate linked the video to me), but I watched it to fill my curiosity. I've been seeing comments saying that people must stop watching it. I understand the fact that they're trying to wait enough to show respect to the guys, but come on. People are naturally curious to get some scoop about something. That's what I really feel while I was reading comments like that.


About SM's action, thank God their action was immediate. they already blocked those videos about the dance practice. The thing that's kind of bothering me is the security of the video. I've read a post on how videos are linked, and I guess that SM might have gave the video to the wrong hands. I'm pretty sorry for SM, but I think they should've been secure enough to give the video to the right hands.


Anyway, for the people who haven't watched the video, don't watch it anymore. Just patiently wait for the music video. For those who have watched it, don't spoil other people about it. Don't share your copy to the public if you do have one. Let's just wait for their official return which is just around the corner.


I must be editing something right now, but I can't keep the thought anymore. Anyway, I hope EXO's comeback will be a big hit, especially that their comeback song (based from my opinion of course) is a great one.


That's all for now.

PS. I've heard another news that the leaked video wasn't the full one yet. Fuck (sorry, can't contain it any longer), that was the full choreography already, then you guys are saying it isn't the full version? I'm pissed. But anyway, let's just still wait for their comeback stage.

Can't Stop

Before I start telling whatever I have to blog this day, I'll use the Filipino language to convey what I really feel right now. You may use a translator or let someone who is a Filipino to tell you what I said in this blog.

With that, let's get to this.



14.03.18



Isa na yata 'yang araw na 'yan na pinakatatandaan ko. Marami kasing nangyari sa isang araw, o sabihin nating isang gabi. Lahat na yata ng pwedeng emosyon, naramdaman ko na sa araw na 'to. Bakit? Kasi JS Prom namin. At first time ko pa. Medyo mataas ang expectations ko, dahil siyempre baguhan pa lang ako sa ganoong bagay.



Mga 4 na ng hapon nang naisipan kong sunduin yung mga kaklase ko para pumunta na sa venue. At dahil hindi ako street smart, nagkandaleche-leche yung pagturo ko sa mga bahay ng kaklase ko. Kinabahan na rin ako kasi baka hindi kami umabot sa oras, pero salamat naman at nasaktuhan namin yung call-time. Nakakatuwa pa nga kasi malapit yung mesa namin sa mesa ng crush ko. Oh 'di ba, medyo kinilig na 'ko!



Mga 6 na nung nagsimula ang program. Everything went smoothly so far. Ang sarap pa nga ng pagkain, eh! Hindi ko aakalaing mauubos ko yung ganoong karami ng pagkain sa isang plato. Okay pa hanggang cotillion, hanggang sa dumating na ang dance party.



Ayun, siyempre yung mga kaklase ko nagsayawan naman habang ako, nasa table nagbabantay ng kung anong mga gamit nila. Natutuwa ako sa kanila kaso hindi ko rin maiwasang umasa na isasayaw ako ng crush ko. Alam niyo naman, prom. Nang biglang magbago ang music, from slow to party hard songs, nagsitayuan na kami para sumayaw. Siyempre, sumali na 'ko. Ayokong mapag-iwanan no!



At doon na dumating yung problema ko. Pagbalik namin sa table, biglang nawala yung bag tsaka bolero ko! Bago kasi kami tumayo ay iniwan ko siya sa upuan ako. Pero, shet! Nawawala yung gamit ko! Paano ako uuwi niyan, 'di ba? Nandun pa naman yung cellphone ko, wallet, at kung anu-ano pang kailangan ko para mairaos yung gabing 'yun. Siyempre, sinabi ko sa mga kaklase ko yung tungkol doon. Muntikan pa nga nilang ipa-announce, eh. Buti 'di natuloy.



Nahanap ko ba yung bag ko? Oo, nahanap ko siya. Paano? Nakita ko kasing tumayo yung mga nakaupo dun sa mesa kung nasaan yung crush ko. And poof, bigla kong nakita yung bag ko dun sa may mesa nila! Bigla akong nainis, hindi ko alam kung bakit. Pero at least, nahanap ko yung bag ko. At least, makakauwi ako ng buhay.



Bumalik ulit yung slow songs. Medyo nawalan na ako ng pag-asa nung nakita kong nakaupo lang siya dun sa may upuan niya. 'Di ko maiwasang itanong sa sarili ko kung may balak ba siyang isayaw yung crush niya. Pero nabigla na lang ako nang may dumaan mula sa likod ko. Siya pala yun, kasama yung isasayaw niya. Aray naman, doon pa kasi sa may tapat ko sumayaw, eh! Sinong 'di magseselos dun, ha? Tapos isa pa, kasayaw niya naman yung dating nagka-crush sa kanya. Mas nainis ako dun, may konting galit ako dun sa babae. Pero tss, wala eh.



Nasabi na yung awardees noong gabi na 'yun. Nagkaroon na naman ng slow dancing. Mas lalo akong nawalan ng pag-asa nun dahil patapos na yung gabi, at hindi na siya nagsasayaw pa.



But wait, there's more!



Hindi ko pa pala nasasabi sa inyo na yung mga kaklase kong kasama sa mesa ay gusto akong ipagpilitan magkaroon ng picture sa crush ko. At dahil may hiya naman ako ng kahit konti ay tumanggi ako. Anyways, party hard music na yung tumutugtog nang bigla akong kausapin nung mga kaklase ko. Tinatanong nila kung ayos lang ba talaga ako, kasi hindi ako gaanong umaalis sa table ko. Tinatanong nila ako kung sure ba ako na ayos lang talaga. Sabi ko, ayos naman.



Pero sadyang mapilit 'tong mga kaklase ko kaya sinabi ko na sila na bahala kung gusto nila. At ayun, lumapit na sila sa crush ko at tinawag. Tapos sabi nung lalaki kong kaklase na sumayaw na kami. Nagulat ako dun. Akala ko, picture lang! Pero sayaw, shet! AKALA KO PICTURE LANG! SHET, SAYAW! HINDI AKO HANDA DUN! BAKIT SAYAW?!?!?!



Pero dahil naiintindihan ko naman yung effort nung mga kaklase ko, hala sige sayaw! Ang awkward lang, sumayaw kami dun sa may party hard na music. Tapos romantic pang sayaw! Todo-sorry ako sa kanya, nakakahiya naman talaga kasi. Nilabas ko na yung daldal ko sa kanya, buti naman at sumasagot kahit papaano. Sinabi kong ang awkward, bakit party music, at kung anu-ano pa. Nasabihan ko pa nga siya ng mianhae (sorry yun), ewan ko lang kung hindi niya napansin o hindi niya pinansin. Basta ayun, mukha kaming tanga dun sa likod! Hahaha! Pero ayos lang yun, at least pinasaya nila ang gabi ko! Hahaha! Sila kasi yung mga kaklase ko talaga yung nagpursige. Thanks kay Paula, Aurora, tsaka kay Daniel! Pati na rin kay crush! Hahaha!



Matapos nun ay yung last part. Pagkatapos nun ay natira pang minuto para kami'y magsayaw. and poof, romantic song ulit! Ano ba, bakit hindi na lang kami dun nagsayaw! Sayang talaga! Pero okay na okay na okay lang talaga, kinikilig pa rin ako hanggang ngayon, eh! Hahaha!



Ang ending? Well, I ditched prom. Oha, ang galing ko talaga! Hahaha! Hindi, nag-text na kasi ako before yung last part namin na magpapasundo na 'ko. Eh, dumating na yung tatay ko, so umalis na 'ko ng venue. Buti na lang at hindi ako nakita nung mga teachers na tumakas. Nakakatuwa, at least may experience!



Anyways, tama na. Nobela na kasi, eh! Nga pala, bakit Can't Stop yung title ng post? Alam niyo yung kanta ng Can't Stop by CNBLUE? Kung alam niyo, makakarelate kayo. Yung verses kasi ay may slow na tempo, which reminded me of our dance, habang yung sa chorus naman ay medyo mabilis, na siyang nagpaalala sa'kin nung music nung time na 'yun. Ayos na ba? Ayos!



Oh siya, tama na talaga 'to! See ya in the future blog! ♥♥

PS. May picture kami, kaso private na 'yun! Hahaha! ♥