My initial reaction? Of course, I was happy for them. I'm an EXO-Shidae shipper, but I don't really ship any otp's from them so I was excited and happy for them. I also told this to my friend who is a Baekyeon shipper and he was happy as well.
The good side: you still have a chance with your bias. The bad side: except if your bias is Baekhyun and Taeyeon. The worse side: too much bashers, too much drama.
The good side isn't really a really good side for me, but I'd still put it in because of something. Remember how Yoona and Seunggi's otp happened before they were official? It's because Seunggi likes Yoona. He's a fanboy of Yoona. This fanboy-idol relationship happened again with the two. Baekhyun is a fanboy of Taeyeon, and most EXO Stans know that.
The bad side, well of course, is if your bias are the two. But that dosen't really matter now. What matters is the worst side of the story.
Too much drama, too much speculations, too much bashers, too much stuff that happened in a span of 24 hours or more.
Intial reactions of the fans? They were so random. Some were happy, some broke down, some bashed. As for me, I was happy with the couple. But when I saw more of the tweets in my new fan account, my happy vibe shifted into something that wasn't definitely good.
I was hurt for those fans of Baekhyun (I almost had him as my bias, good thing (or not) this happened). Why? Because they were definitely hurt. They were emotionally broken. They believed in those promises that turned out to be some shit just recently. I was hurt the most for Polarlight-unnie because she did everything to be close to Baekhyun. When the news broke up, she posted in her Weibo account that she's going to support the couple, but she then posted in her personal account that she lost everything.
The problem with our idols is that they say they love us (fans), when those things are soon to be broken someday. The problem with us fans is that we believe in them. We believe in those promises we know that will be broken. We believe in them to the point that we become delusional and think that we'll have 99.99% chance of those idols falling in love with us.
Aftermath? Double, triple, or a lot times more hurting than the 99.99% chance you've been holding on.
That's what I've learned when I started liking K-guys, to get myself a grip of reality. To make myself believe that K-idols won't notice me. I sometimes overspazz when it comes to Yixing, but I always get myself a grip of it. I'll admit I'll cry when he'll be in a relationship, but it won't be hurting too much because of the reality I'm holding on to.
To the speculations I've read, I'm starting to get nervous at EXO's career. After Kris' lawsuit, Baekhyun's relationship and underage drinking were revealed. I've read that some other members have their girlfriends (even one member broke up already). I've also read about the 3 subunits in the near future. With that said, I'm starting to think that EXO won't be stable anymore. After their skyrocket glory last year, they just dropped in an instant with these issues. I'm not saying they are at the bottom, but I'm saying that they're starting to fall down slowly but hugely. You get it? With those mind-blowing news, EXO's starting to fall down slowly. I'm scared for them because of the huge success they made last year that will make them fall down in the near future.
I've been asking myself how to unstan them, because I don't think I can handle the pain when this big blow happens. They are a part of me, also with SNSD. I'm also scared for SNSD because they'll start -- no, they're falling already. Mr. Mr. wasn't that much of a song compared to IGAB, plus 2NE1's Come Back Home was better to the public. In addition to that, they're starting to reveal their relationships already. These things scare me a lot because they are a part of who I am now. GG were the persons who made me like k-pop. EXO were the persons that made me a full-time fangirl.
To the bashers, I know they have a reason to bash them, but I don't think fucking Taeyeon or Baekhyun on their IG accounts would end their relationship with each other. It would rather make them feel that they should protect themselves more. I feel sorry for Taeyeon because she said sorry to all those fans even if she hasn't done anything wrong at all. There's nothing wrong with falling in love, right? There's also nothing wrong with keeping it as privacy of their life. I wish the people who bashed them would say sorry, 'cause practically falling in love isn't a sin.
To Byun Baekhyun, I have a lot of things to tell you. And that thing I wanted to tell you was the I thing I always wanted to ask Kris when he filed the lawsuit. Why, Baekhyun? You... you broke too many hearts with your promises meant for someone else. Why did you let them believe in you, in the chance that you'll fall in love with them? I'm not really a bias of yours, but I really feel hurt for them. Why were you selfish? Why were you having fun in a situation wherein we are all fucked up? Kris' situation isn't done, yet you added fuel to the fire. I know I don't know anything about your private lives, maybe Taeyeon-unnie comforted you because of that, or I don't know. But I know there's a reason behind everything. Also, why didn't you speak up when Taeyeon was being bashed too much? She's been hurting yet there's no word from you.
"Remain soft-spoken and forgiving, even when reason is on your side." - Master Cheng Yen
I placed that quote because whatever the reason is, I'll still accept them. I know Kris has reason for that lawsuit. I know Baekhyun has a reason why he isn't telling anything yet. I know there is a underlying reason for all of this, yet I'll still forgive them because I know they did it for their best. That's one quote our Journalism teacher told us. Even though we know that reason is with us, we still have to understand and forgive. We have to understand every single detail that counts.
I'm ending this right now because I can't take it anymore. To Baekhyun and Taeyeon, I hope your relationship would last. Protect each other because all the fans are depending on you.
Please.
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